Transvestia

vation of my longings. As soon as the opportunity arrived for me to be along in the house with her soft feminine garments, I easily succumbed to that familiar compulsion. For the first time without feelings of guilt and shame, I experienced the delightful ecstasy of femme-dressing.

Most of my feminine companions have been approxi- mately my size. I invariably wish for the chance to try on their clothing. But I have not told any of them about my desires. Since I am still a carefree bachelor, I have yet to face the problem of trying to explain overt trans- vestism to a potential wife. This need for confession I feel, will be mandatory because my yearnings for femme- dressing are much too strong to be denied or terminated. It is most probable that my future wife will quickly be- come cognizant of my compulsion. I doubt that a real transvestite can resist the intensity of the pattern. Since I can likely anticipate marrying a girl pretty close to size. The available clothing temptation will undoubtedly prove irresistable.

In 1957, at the age of twenty-seven, I finally sur- rendered to this delemma which had been vexing me for a full decade. Resistance had withered, then died, and I was left with no recourse but absolute capitulation. I commenced to acquire my personal feminine wardrobe.

My introduction to TRANSVESTIA in 1960 further accelerated my femme-phillia. But even more distinctly important it provided me with a vital key to open the door of ignorance, guilt and self doubt. And it provided me with a sense of direction. I had previously encount- ered quasi-medical publications which presented material on transvestism. These sources are obviously unsatisfactory because of their superficial clinical viewpoint. Since they are composed by observers rather than participants. these viewpoints contribute virtually nothing towards self acceptance, or the understanding of personal moti- vations.

Through the Person to Person department of TRANS- VESTIA, I was able to establish contact with others of mutual interest. I heartily endorse the priceless insight which is to be acquired by active discussion of the prob- lems, needs and aspirations with people who thoroughly

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